oh kakiku

ini bukan tempat Kakiku Reflexology yang kat SACC Mall tu...ini kaki aku punye cerita da....

aku mengalami masalah saket kaki (esp kat tumit 2-2 belah kaki) since 2 bulan yang lalu...so aku ingat saket kaki biase aje...kena kat studio da lame...

so bile balik cuti sem ni aku ade la terpikir nak ajak ayah aku gi klinik sebab saket ni tak baek-baek lagi...last week aku da pegi jumpe doktor...doktor cakap ni bukan expertise die...so die cume leh bagi pain killer & ubat sapu...aku cume makan ubat die bagi for 3 days only...(kenyataan yang aku ni memang susah nak makan ubat kecuali di paksa) and doktor tu cakap kalo pas abes makan ubat ni still saket...gi hosital Selayang jumpe pakar tulang...leh buat x-ray sume...(makan ubat doktor ni pon tak abes...ni kan nak suruh aku jumpe doktor pakar...)

mak aku ade bagi cadangan pegi urut ngan jiran...ade makcik yang ajar adek aku mengaji ni leh urutkan orang (memang every cuti sem aku akan berurut ngan die 1 badan)...makcik ni urut memang power gile sebab kompem badan aku akan lebam-lebam pas urut ngan die...

so tadi berlangsunglah operasi berurut kaki ngan makcik tu...ya Allah...saket nye tuhan saje yang tau...perasaan seperti kaki ni die cabut tulang satu demi satu dari hujung jari-jari kaki sampai betis...makcik tu cakap " ade banyak angin kat kaki awak ni...banyak jalan la ni..." (memang aku kuat jalan...ngee)...part die nak urut betis pulak...die kate ade urat kaki aku tersimpul...sebab tu bile urut kaki aku sejuk cam air batu...time die nak betolkan urat tersimpul tu aku rase cam nak guling sampai jalan raya...rase cam nak pengsan die pulas kaki aku...

selepas sesi urut berlalu...makcik tu cakap antara sebab kaki aku saket adalah ade 'benda' tumpang kat kaki aku...aku tersalah pijak tempat makhluk yang tak nampak ni punye rumah...mane la aku tau tu tempat 'die'..sape sroh x letak sign board...kalo x mesti aku x pijak punye...kan da x pasal-pasal aku saket...

pengajaran...pasni nak pegi mane-mane (esp sitevisit)...bace lah ayat-ayat pelindung diri supaya tak la mende-mende pelik ni ikot balik rumah...tak pon sakat korang...

angan-angan ku...

ntah macam mane...tengah-tengah bace majalah Ujang tadi aku bleh terkeluar beberapa angan-angan serta impian (cewah) yang romantik ini....(jiwang le pulak)

~~~ pegi picnic...tak kesah la dengan sape (tapi kalo gi dengan orang tersayang lagi syok) kat satu taman...dok atas tikar...makan2 sanwich...borak-borak...gossip-gossip...sambil maen layang-layang...baring-baring...bace buku...gile tenang...pastikan tempat tu memang best gile babeng...cuaca pon ala suam-suam kuku...

~~~ pegi memancing...ni pon tak kesah ngan sape...kat tasik ke...paling adventure naek bot gi mancing kat laut dalam...pergh...memang syok gile...aku da lame tak pegi memancing...last time pon time kecik-kecik...pas mancing kalo dapat habuannya...wat BBQ...makan ikan bakar cicah air asam...(meleleh air liur aku...)

~~~ pegi panjat gunung...pegi jungle tracking ke...dapat bermalam 1-2 malam kat tengah-tengah hutan pon best gak...baru la dapat menghayati & menghargai ciptaan Allah yang Maha chantek ni...kalo pegi ngan orang tersayang...time ni la kite dapat tau true colour die...aku nye komander Kesatria time kat Perak dulu pernah cakap...biasenye...kalo ade 1 pasangan pegi camping same-same...time pegi memang same-same...bile balik mesti gaduh or putus...tapi kalo time camping tu kite gi as a single...kenal & berkenan pulak ngan insan sorang lagik...balik dari camping mesti akan ade apape...kebenarannye...aku sendiri tak brape pasti walaupon mende ni memang pernah jadi kat aku

ni baru 3 angan-angan & impian gile aku...blom yang melibatkan banyak aktiviti sukan ekstrim sume...(yeah ...saye seorang outdoor person)...kalo aku tak dapat buat ngan member-member or orang tersayang sekalipon...aku nak tunaikan jugak impian aku ni walaupon aku akan buat sorang-sorang...

puffy furball is back!

sudah hampir setahun aku pencen wat mendalah ni sebab xde mase yang mengizinkan...tapi sebab da janji ngan adek aku yang kecik tu 6 bulan lepas...maka terhasil la puffy furball ni lagik...

hari pertama 4 bijik je terjual ( tu lebih tahun lepas aku wat konon nak jual time archyfest ) tapi adek aku bawak balik tempahan untuk 14 bijik furball...

hari kedua 17 bijik terjual...adek aku bawak balik tempahan untuk 26 bijik pulak...(aku da mula garu kepala sebab tangan aku da mula lebam2 ikat furball ni)...the best part...siap cikgu skolah pon tempah...hahaha...tak sangka aku...laris jugak...

ni lah rupe furball yang da siap untuk di distribute...siap letak name supaya tak salah bagi kat pemiliknye

ni lebey kurang cam katalog la...version malas nak mampos...adek aku yang 2nd tu nak tlg wat kan siap grafik chantek2 tapi aku xmo sebab die mintak komisyen lebih...rugi la aku

borang tempahan asal yang da macam pembalut belacan...biasa la...budak2 skolah rendah

ni borang baru yang aku tulis balik...nampak la proper sket...

hopefully harini adik aku bawak brite gembira lagik...bleh la aku langsaikan hutang maxis aku yang da sebulan tertangguh tu...walaupon sekadar dapat berapa sen ni...at least aku dok rumah xde la bosan sangat...

gothic to hip hop...how come??

one of my ex boifren friend suddently ask me...

" ko dulu bukan gothic ke...apsal skang da laen??"

---> padahal aku x pernah 'berkawan' sangat pon ngan mamat neyh...tapi die notice la yang dulu aku agak horror ngan zaman ke gothickan aku...hmm...suddenly lagu neyh bermaen-maen dalam kepala aku....

FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES--SHORT STORIES WITH TRAGIC ENDINGS

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I cannot give.

(Did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts you so much it's like choking...choking)

I can give you freedom from your guilt,
with a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.

I can give you death with the look upon my face.

This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no regrets;
you don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no good bye.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
With a short story, the one you add to daily,
you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand.
Cry for you.Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Mourn, wish the end
Mourn, wish the end
Mourn, wish the end

Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have...
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down...come down...
I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same for me..
.just say you would do the same...
just say you would do the same,
for meFor as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.

lagu ni pon bukan la bergenre gothic pon...tapi aku suke dengar...orang-orang yang bertanggungjawab memperkenalkan lagu ni kat aku adelah Alia & Ayu...diorang bagi aku dengar lagu ni sebab aku tengah down sensangat pasal ade perkara bodoh menimpa aku...apsal lagu ni??..sebab ade meaning yang ter sendiri---->

~lagu ni berkisarkan tentang people you love with all your heart making tragic mistakes over and over again

~about being hurt by the person that you loved some much and it is hard for "you" to be able to move on and never love someone again

~about not being able to forgive/forget someone whom you loved that hurt you in the most miserable way possible

well ...some meanings are truly ken mengena dengan diri aku...

hari nolstalgia

hari kemarin...adik aku yang 2nd tu tibe-tibe bawak kuar album-album gambar lama dari bilik parents aku dan ajak aku tengok same-same ngan die...ntah tetibe terkeluar idea nak scan sume gambar2 tu...especially gambar ayah aku sebab kitorang nak wat montaj...kire hadiah untuk ayah aku...bufday die 28 Jun ni...mau setengah hari jugak la nak scan beratus-ratus gambar (termasok gambar aku ngan adek aku time kecik2)...

aku suke sangat tengok gambar time kitorang kecik-kecik dulu...sangat hepi...ni antara feveret picture dari album aku....

paling suke gambar ni...mak aku pon cakap ni feveret picture die...ni time aku umur 4 tahun...location: depan rumah

aku suke gambar ni sebab time ni aku tengah menari tibe-tibe ayah aku snap candid...aku sempat posing la kan...haha

ni gambar aku ngan adek aku yg 2nd...Roy...kitorang memang rapat dari kecik...sampai skang kalo wat jahat memang tag team la...esp dalam bidang penyakatan budak2 kecik...heheh

aku suke gambar ni sebab gambar ni di ambil time tgh banjir besar kat pahang...ayah aku leh lagik bawak kitorg g kedai gambar pastu tangkap gambar kat studio kedai tu...kenangan banjir kate ayah aku...(nampak tak seluar ayah aku basah takat lutut tu)

curik dari seri...bosan dowh...

1) Full name? mazni mohd jamel
2) Single or Taken? single as always
3) Sex? Female.
4) Birthday? february 3rd 1987
5) Sign? aquarius
6) Sibling(s)? 2 sisters 1 brother
7) Hair colour? dark brown
8) Eye color? Dark Brown.
9) Shoe size? 5-6
10) Height? 153cm (tinggi since form 3)

*RELATIONSHIPS*

1) Who is/are your best friend(s)? all my close friends lah
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? right now??nope.
3) Did you send this to your crush? errr..ntah.

*FASHION STUFF*

1) Where is your favorite place to shop? Bukit Bintang.

*THE EXTRA STUFF*

1) What kind of shampoo do you use? head & shoulder
2) What are you most scared of? bankrupsi!
3) What car do you wish to have? new volkswagen...beetle series...yellow one...haha
4) Who is the last person that called you? ma mum
5) When do you want to get married? bile mak aku da bising sroh kawen
6) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? be more feminin...maybe..
7) What was your first car? xde lagik laaa

*FAVOURITES*

1) Colours? black,red,white,yellow
2) Number? 03
3) Food? seafood
4) Subjects in school? technical drawing
5) Animals? fish
6) Drink? white coffee
7) Celebrities? ntah...saye bukan obses ngan artis

*HAVE YOU EVER*

1) Given anyone a bath? my adek2
2) Bungee jumped? teringin nak wat
3) Broken the law? pernah kot
4) Gone skinny dipping? hell no.
5) Made yourself throw up? no no no

*FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND*

1) Red? darah!
2) Do you like filling these out? sebab saye bosan saye wat mendalah neyh
3) How many people are you sending this too? nobody
4) Who will send it back? none
5) Gold or Silver? silver

*MISCELLANEOUS*

1) What are you listening to right now? bunyik kipas kat living room
2) Who is sitting next to you right now? nobody
3) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? my future husband
4) Who do you admire? hurmmm..hard one...next!
5) What makes you happy? family & friends
6) How many buddies on your list? too many
7) What do you like to do? art stuff...tgn aku da gatal nak kaler2...gunting2...lukis2...
8) Do you like yourself? yes lah
9) Have you ever hated any person in your family? nope
10) Favorite place to visit? disneyland
11) Favorite Month? february
12) Night or Day? Night.
13) Rain or Sun? rain.
14) Scary or Happy Movie? happy
15) Career? designer

*HAVE YOU EVER*

1) Loved someone so much it made u cry? so far..no
2) Broken a bone? yup..my finger
3) Played Truth or Dare? yesss.
4) Been in a physical fight? yes
5) Been on a plane? yes
6) Come close to dying? yes.
7) Been in a sauna? no
8) Been in a hot tub? yes
9) Swam in the ocean? yes
10) Been in the back of a police car? no
11) What do you think about soap? soap? buih2
12) Worst song you ever heard? lagu2 yg loser abes seperti meratapi peninggalan si kekasih...what the hell?
13) Best song you ever heard? sgt byk
14) Stupidest thing you've ever done? secret
15) What's your bedroom like? right now? everything checkered & yellow =p
16) Have a lava lamp? nope
17) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? nnoo
18) Your crush? ade ke??
19) Most prized possession? ntah...too many
20) Vegetarian? no. saye bukan kambeng
21) Good driver? ntah.
22) Good at sports? used to be good esp as a hockey player
23) Good actor/actress? so-so
24) Good dancer? maybe
25) Shy? nope.
26) Good storyteller? maybe...kasik hyperbola sket
27) Chicken pox? when i was little
28) Sore throat? selalu kalo kena mmg lmbat baek
29) Stitches? no..
30) Bloody nose? so far x pernah kena lagi
31) Cold? nope

*DO YOU*

1) Enjoy parks? yezza
2) Like picnics? Yes...love to.
3) Like school?yess.
4) Collect anything? anything checkered and small toys
5) Like to shop? yes..a lot
6) In trouble a lot? No.
7) What is one thing you want? a lot of MONEYYY

*WOULD YOU*

1) Eat a live hamster for a million dollars? eiww yucks...
2) Go to a Hanson concert if you had a free ticket? aku akan jual ticket tu kat org laen
3) Kill someone you didn't know for 15 billion dollars? maybe
4) If you were stuck on an island, who would you want on the island with you? my family & my best fren--> akma i luv u

kegilaan baru

aku mungkin ketinggalan zaman kot...baru tau yang crew Jabbawockeez tu juara from competition "Best Dance Crew 2008"...aku jadi minat gile kat diorang da lame tapi baru tau the real name and orang amek dari diorang since RUMI Workshop aritu...budak2 UIAM ngan UiTM Seri Iskandar perform time performance night...sorry for my junior but UIAM wat memang smart gile...hoho...kegilaan melihat mereka menari especially time lagu 'RED PILL'...whoa...memang best gile...

new items

tidak ku sangka...ape yg aku ngan adek aku wat hari sabtu aritu rupen-rupenye mendatangkan hasil...hehe...kitorang sukerela je nak kemas-kemas rumah...cuci kereta abah (time tu abah ade kursus kat Seremban)...potong rumput...and the reward nye adelah...shopping!!!

kereta abah yang chantek berkilat kitorg cuci...siap polish tuh...

hari ahad nye kami sekeluarga pergi bershopping di Selayang Mall...(tempat paling dekat yang bleh gi) and i got 2 new item...hehe...

Applemint jeans..RM109.00..at Parkson Selayang Mall

seluar jeans hitam yang aku dok cari-cari...akhirnye aku dapat gak...hehe...(aku nak Levis sebenarnye tapi takde yang berkenan...sambar ajela mane2 yang patut)

Axel sport shoe..RM49.99..at Selayang Mall

aku memang da lame nk beli sport shoe baru since sport shoe aku yang lame tercabut tapak gara-gara explorace kat UiTM...now baru dapat...bleh aku jogging ngan seronok after dis...

perancangan hidup yang terganggu

hmm...pas aku check result exam aku semalam...aku da agak perkara ni mesti berlaku...aku memang da jangka dan bersedia...tapi sedikit kecewa sebab plan aku terganggu and terpaksa di tangguhkan untuk lagi 6 bulan...

result aku memang mengecewakan...aku extent 1 sem lagi...bermakna 6 bulan lagi aku kena berperang ngan design...adoi...subjek killer siot...

aku memang tak kesah fail kali ni...serius tak kesah sebab aku sendiri tak puas hati ngan hasil kerja yang aku buat tu...design tak siap...banyak perkara tak solve...planning berterabur...salah wat jalan...construction menipu sana sini...final product pon tak gempak...hmm...so memang aku sendiri yang tak usaha lebih untuk lulus...maka aku kecundang di semester akhir...huhu...

bile aku fikir-fikir...aku lagi rela fail projek last sem dari aku lulus stakat dapat C+ or C...final year nye project dapat C je??...sape nak amek ko keje plus kalo ye pon takat dapat jadi draughman je la...jangan berangan nak dapat jawatan assistant architect or design architect...nak keje orang tengok final year nye design project...kalo aku lulus...dengan hasil aku yang tak siap dan construction berterabur tu...sekali orang panggil interview tanye itu...ini...tak ke malu sendiri...

apape hal pon...aku akan buat yang terbaek untuk diri aku sem depan...aku pon nak grad ngan result design yang membanggakan...leh score 4 flat la aku next sem...1 subjek je yang sangkot...huhu